How to Heal: From Moral Injury Pt. 1

*I’m not in the business of telling people what to do in their lives, but if you are currently not feeling emotionally and mentally safe and grounded, I do not recommend reading past the line.

Y’all. The way I have been procrastinating writing these blogs. I don’t know that I have ever had such heavy (but hopefully still empowering) things to say.

The litany of events of this new year have piled on to our already hurt collective consciousness from previous years, decades and centuries. It has made life feel unbearable at times.

And this is precisely what they want.

(I will not comment on any of the events because if you cared enough to click onto this blog, you know exactly what I am referring to.)

They want to flood us with injury after injury, so we have no time to recover before the next blow. Understanding this is a good first step. Understanding that this is part of a larger strategy can bring us out of the throes of anguish for just long enough to declare: “I won’t fall for it. This is horrible and devastating, and I still won’t let you hijack my soul.”

Hopefully, I will cover:

• Understanding what hurts and why it feels so damn bad comparatively speaking

• What I mean by ‘moral injury’ b/c I don’t necessarily mean it in the way it was first used, which I believe was in the context of war vets

• Identifying the hidden costs of our pain

• How to prepare

• How to actually HEAL this, or at least attempt to, broken up in a few parts

We’ll see how this unfolds. Let’s keep going with the first bullet point.

What hurts? Everything. Why does it feel so bad? It always has.

Except that now, in a very concentrated period of time we have been hit with injuries at multiple levels (physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, psychically etc.) that have compounded against the healed and unhealed wounds that were already there generationally, societally, and systemically. It feels like torture. For those of us who have wounds of torture or abuse in our history or lineage, then what is happening right now is serving as a severe activation of that cellular memory.

The injuries are coming in through what we see (or don't see), hear (or don't hear), witness, experience, smell and even taste. All of our senses are implicated putting our brains on high alert, and there is no escaping it, at least not if you give a damn.

I want to get a heavy statement out of the way, and if right now is not the time to be reading potentially scary theories of what might unfold, skip ahead to a different post. I am only including them here because for me, anticipating likely scenarios and planning accordingly, is very helpful. For you, it may bring up worry or anxiety. You know yourself.

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In my humble opinion, this also feels as bad as it does for another reason: we know this is about to get worse. Before reading my theories, check in with your intuition to see if this would be helpful for you to do.

Consider this: What do YOU think will happen in the coming months and years?

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My mantra whenever I do tarot or astrology readings is: forewarned is forearmed.

I didn’t experience hurricanes while growing up in NYC, but when I moved to Houston, I learned what it meant to prepare for them, the hard way. Believe me, if a hurricane is on its way, you want to know about it in advance so you can stay ready.

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Here we go. I think deep down we already know:

1. accountability won’t come for everyone. There may be some sacrificial lambs held up as the example, we did just have a solar eclipse which usually correlates with the downfall of prominent people, but for others, there will be no consequences commensurate with the gravity of their crimes.

2. the rest of the files are even worse than what they have allowed us to see.

3. we are at the brink of war. I have been saying this for the past few years. We will likely be lied to the events or reasons for this. The Winter Olympics is serving as a little bit of a stop gap right now. Closing ceremonies are on Sunday Feb 22nd and after that…

4. we learned nothing from the pandemic and are at risk of illness at a massive scale, including, but not limited to, the effects of war.

5. given the above, water, food, and finances will be difficult for a lot of us.

We may or may not want to confront these brutal truths. (In my brain, they are truths, not theories). I’m not stating them here because I want to make our pain worse. Life is already scary. I’m stating them here b/c I believe forewarned is forearmed, and if you take a moment to check in with yourself, you may find that these are logical. And if I’m right, then we need to do the best we can to prepare for the hurricane.

I desperately want to be wrong because how exactly does one prepare for horror?

If I didn’t scare you away, the rest of the posts will be much more… traditionally constructive. I'm going to share my best recommedations for how to heal and how to prepare.

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